Today was better. Didn't eat myself into a state of unconsiousness so at least there's that. Processing resentments seems to be next on the roster. But doing all this recovery from eating disorder seems more difficult than it would be if I were not required to fulfill all these obligations ... Work... Driving... (Lots per day) etc and so forth. Rehab seems the most successful idea. But it's not gonna happen I don't think. Sigh. Can't wait to be over this shit.